Every day – a chance to begin again.
It would seem that, once the decision is made to go nomad, then it’s off you go! But, after almost five years living small, it’s become clear that every day is a new gig.
The choices one makes each day change by the hour, and plans are just a suggestion. The weather changes your plans. Your energy level changes your plans. A Facebook events search changes your plans. The distance to the nearest grocery changes your plans. A simple chore list can change your plans. And a chance meetup with a friend you’ve just met can change everything!
A few days ago, I was juggling my decision to start this blog and develop my online shop of handmade, up-cycled items, with just finding a long term gig and settling in, saving cash. The process of beginning this online journey has been weighing heavy on me. I’m aging; and it’s weird. My mind, and her capabilities, is evolving into something I don’t recognize. Things that came easy for decades are now a challenge. I was starting to reckon with the notion that maybe I’m not a modern nomad, maybe I’m the old fashioned kind of nomad – rolling in, making a few dollars at a short term gig, and moving on to the next one.
But today, I woke up and rolled the dice again, the only way I knew how. I made a post on a great beginner WordPress FB group, asking for assistance. Every opportunity I’ve found has been gained in this way, by just throwing it out to the Universe to see if it sticks. I don’t know why I didn’t think it would work again. I made an assumption that I’d used up all my luck. Damn that third Agreement (Don’t make assumptions.), it gets me every time. A generous woman with a wealth of knowledge answered and set me straight. I chose to run with her instruction. And now I’m here, just hours later, writing my first blog post.
Thanks for reading this far. I hope you’ll join me on this seemingly unconnected journey. If you think like a nomad, it will totally make sense. It’s a journey of self-awareness, and purposeful loss of self. It’s a journey of better nutrition for a post-menopausal body. It’s a journey of meditation and yoga, and hopefully a 200hr YTT too. It’s a journey of social awareness and changing minds. But mostly, it’s a journey to save what’s left of a chaotic life fraught with emotional, behavioral, and financial chaos. It’s about learning how to live with what I have – a creative mind, an open heart, a curious intellect, a fairly intact body, and most importantly, a new path of repentance and repair, built on a more stable foundation than that which I inherited. Life after trauma. A curated life that feels more mine. A life lived in joy and acceptance.
Every day – a chance to begin again.